1. Every year since...way back maybe 25 years.... I have co-opted my friend Carla's toffee recipe and made candy for the staff that worked with my husband. ( recipe here) I used to make it for my staff too until the amount reached enough for 80 to 100 people, and I couldn't afford or deal with another 50 to 60 packages. It's a pretty serious arm stirring few days. Basically the stuff makes me literally ill to even see, when Jack walked in two days ago with his request for it I almost died of shock. What toffee? By when? Oh yeah, ok.

    (remind me sometime to tell the story when we used nuts from the cabinet detecting bugs)



    The ingredients await.......(my daughters) as we check the recipe.
    butter, check
    sugar, check
    nuts, check
    chocolate, check



    In all I had six bowls like this to the brim.



    You wouldn't think making toffee would take anything out of you but 12 packages of butter later, two bags of sugar, 10 bags of slivered almonds, 2 of pecans, 12 of walnuts, and 15 of chocolate chips and the elf shop is closing for the night. My daughters helped in round one last night, and I woke up early today for round two. I am hobbled, for sure, so it did stiffen up my back- but we did it. I'm looking at the finished work in two boxes thinking you'd think it was nothing....Packaging and tagging was greatly aided by my daughter Sophia. This is the long way to say we spent two days doing this. I never really realize until times like this what effort goes into gifts of food. What a labor of love it is.







    Packaging the toffee....





    While we were doing this I started playing a Facebook game I saw-Bejeweled Blitz- that one of my friends (and a teacher that taught my son, Ms. M.) kills at. Weeks ago I thought when I feel better I'm going to try that game out to find a pleasant thing to do sometimes when I'm dragging around, but when I talked to my father the other night he said this is actually rather important -talking about times to work and times to relax. I struggle sometimes with relax.

    I thought I remembered this game specifically from seeing Sylvia play in the car when I used to take my daughter to dance and they'd get my cell phone in the back and laugh all the way. I am pretty obsessive with a game for awhile, so I stayed up trying and got some score of say 60,000. M daughter played again for the first time in years getting 150,000. Yikes, people are good at these things. Pretty much that describes my relationship to games. I do try. I think I keep repeating my poor strategies. My daughter suggested I "go faster."
    So in retaliation I'm blaming the syrinx and moving on.
    Anyway I'm thinking there might be something to that. The surgeon said it accounted for the astoundingly bad reflexes. It's lame but I'm blaming it on this.
    Right now my kids are playing something called "the wii" I can only imagine how I'd do on that.
    But you stand up and do strange body things on that one.



    Oh and they conquered the world in risk, my daughter and her buddies.

    Games, you know, are a fairly big part of a way I'd teach math if given a little leeway. I used to have chess going in 1st grade by this time in the year in the old un-scripted days.


    Mom's , as you know, are good at bragging, guilt, cooking, and I hope loving and nurturing. So I am going to turn this into a momming post. This was kind of an up and down home week.
    Plus side- my kids are all home. I realize all over again what great kids they are and how much I love them. It's just so great to have them together, for whatever it's worth I just have enjoyed looking at them. Just looking like some lovestruck puppy. I guess we just feel our kids are the most profoundly beautiful beings that ever existed. It's really great to fill up the eyes.....The girls out crocheted me already this week, making hats and scarves. I was like-wow.

    Then there is the down side news...I had three cats, but two disappeared at the start of the week. Yeah as in dead. I went out back to find this hawk preparing to attack my third cat the day after they disappeared. I don't know what's going on. I just know this hawk was about a foot off the kitty wings spread and ready to attack. Right by the back door, it was the most intense thing I've ever seen. So my lone cat is locked up, and I can't talk about it too much.



    I know the video shakes all over I'd just gone out and this hawk had no fear of me and it was a rather confrontational thing. Plus Mom was getting in the way.

    My mother had sad news this week too. An old friend of hers died over Thanksgiving, but she did not get the news right away. Nancy Kotz was in school with my parents at Tennessee when they went to under-grad school at UT in the days of Johnny Majors. She and her husband became good friends. In the 1950's. Her husband died just after she had her second child, a long time ago, and Nancy raised her children and was a teacher. I loved talking with her over the years about the "state of affairs" in teaching. In March she called and just straightforwardly told my mom she had leukemia. We hadn't heard from her in awhile, and we both knew why I think, but Mom got brave enough to call two nights ago to hear it from her daughter. It's funny but it made both of us very withdrawn and just indescribably sad. She was a wonderful person.
    Here is what I sent to her guestbook-but it was written for her two kids:
    I wanted to write to you Steve and Karen because I don't think my mom can and we share a rather special connection.
    Both your parents were a part of the oral traditions of my life, part of the fabric of friendship, concern, care of my parents lives. They met in Tenn. at school and my father always thought of your father as a dear, dear friend. One of his closest. Dad laughed with your Dad-I suspected was still a boy a bit with your Dad -and knew him as he started his family, and as he left the earth so early, too early.
    Both my parents admired, loved and thought the world of your mom. What she did was decide to lift herself up from such a loss and raise her kids, above all as a rock for them, teaching, being a true exemplar for any of us. Boy, she was amazing.

    My parents told many stories of their times together as young people, all through my years, and now that I've hit 50 I understand better why they held that so dear in their re-telling. It's a time in your life when you are learning to be-you are expanding, making lives.It is one of the most real times we live. We define "who we are" and what we are about then. And your mother and father did this in a way my parents admired and respected.

    My mother has been helped immeasurably over the last few years by your mom checking in on her regularly (I've enjoyed that care too by the way), talking on the phone, coming out to see us 6 or so years past, it gave her connection and kindness that really was important as she faced a stroke and other things that aging brings. When she called down the other day to see why she hadn't heard- both of us knew that Nancy had probably just gotten too ill.A hard call for her to face. And Mom spent the evening so unusually in her interior spaces until finally I guess what she'd learned. People aren't made, I don't think any more, like that generation and I called my father-who is quite ill- to tell him the sad news.
    Both of them send you their love.
    Both of them would want you to know that among their closest, dearest, most admired friendships sat your parents. They were loved, they are remembered by the McIntosh's. Dad retold for me stories of Bob Kotz, one story of his frustration that his name was always said wrong, even before his getting his degree at Tenn. ( with his humor about that waiting another telling).
    Your parents knew how to tell a good joke. Understood humor and our common humanity, knew how to shed seriousness a second and look around and get real. Nancy knew what mattered, her life in teaching was about making the world a better place.That is the bedrock of these 4 people, our parents. The thing I thought of her was her ability to fight for the profession of teaching in a time many were cowards and gave away the farm, I admired her clarity, wit and her insights. It's rare to find that in anyone. In her it looked easy.
    She carried that with the greatest of grace.
    I know you'll feel this loss all your days. I dread facing this time in my life. I'm so sorry that her illness cheated you out of more years, but I also know you must have the warmest memories. A mom like that will be there for you always. She's just inside your heart.

    My mom sends her love and concern as well as her hopes that in all of you is instilled a piece of both of those parents, such good friends from times when they were setting out into their lives, having their kids, setting their courses. She is thinking of you sending healing thoughts and prayers and all of us want you to know how much is thought of your mom. We loved her dearly.

    Sarah McIntosh Puglisi, daughter of Kenneth and Jean McIntosh


    Made me pause to think how rapidly time has passed, she visited about 6 years ago. I am in shock that she's gone. It's so sad to me when a great teacher leaves the earth. Of all the losses I feel, the loss of teachers seems to me to be one of the greatest unsung sadnesses. I know we need celebrities for some important purposes that entertainment fills, but very rarely do I hear people say that these entertainers change their lives quite like I hear in listening to folks talk about their teachers. But the showbiz deaths receive great notice, well of course. Teachers however do change lives. And I meet almost no one that can't name the teachers that mattered for them. I like to listen and hear the stories of those unsung people. So Nancy Kotz is appearing here in my seasonal posting so I can share with you this wonderful teacher that gave a lifetime to kids. Some real pistols.

    Nancy had a great sense of humor. Once remarking to me about NCLB, "Can you believe this shit?"
    I've always appreciated that.


    Somehow I started wanting after that news to distract myself so I started playing the game on Facebook -you sort of slide jewels around-since my kids are presently wii-ing it. It kind of enabled me to develop a pretty clear case of new obsessive behavior in just under two days.

    Sylvia, my daughter, wrote two papers she shared with me that by mom's bragging rights I want to talk about, and clearly it's just a wandering post, so I want to put them here.
    If I can put them here. I'm going to try it anyway...

    Syl is taking a Shakespeare class and this was one of her papers on Coriolanus. I thought it was so interesting. And this was one earlier in her semester on Titus and Andronicus.
    Read them....please.
    She is majoring in CNS ( Her degree is Engineering and Applied Science with an emphasis in Computation and Neural System Focus/ and a Bachelors of Science in English from Cal Tech).
    So I asked her for permission to put her papers because I thought they were both very cool.

    You might be able to tell that we are kind of just coming to the end of the year. Because I've been out awhile with a leave for this back injury, with a set of epidurals to do on the 29th I'm dis-oriented seasonally. My clock surely is set by teaching. But I am getting that last stand at the momming thing- as my kids are growing and grown.

    Oh, oh, we decorated two trees this year.
    DSC05380 by you.
    On this tree is every decoration given to me by students in 27 years and made by my kids.
    And it is incredibly special to me each one is a story and each one brings forward a child that spent a year of their life with me.
    We got a "real" tree this year. First time since Syl was three and allergies convinced me to go plastic. Jack hauled it in, well Luca helped, as a surprise. It's smelling a lot like Christmas.
    DSC05366 by you.
    Sophia decorated this one with her friends....

    I'm going here with a slideshow..of that whole fun evening with our "real tree".

    .

    And for the music...humm....



    That's the last day or so. I haven't got any presents figured out. But scarves, hats and shawls are very likely! So get ready.
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    Today my son turned 15.
    He is the greatest.
    I tried to tell him his birth story yesterday picking him up from high school. He had a bit of a trapped child look. But I barreled on. He was born after a night they delayed his birth. I waited for the AM arrival of Dr.Alvarez. Luca had the umbilical cord around his neck, contractions stopped his heart. When I delivered, the moment I dilated to the correct amount I had one push to get him out safely. It was a very touchy thing as the contractions to dilate stopped his heart so this was an AM of debate and the Dr. made sure I was extremely hydrated and all in all there was a lot of tension. After lunch in one push he arrived a really lovely baby. He was an easy baby. A welcome one. Luca has been a marvelous son. Angel's fan by two! He loves Bret Favre, he was a die heart Greenbay fan but...it's leaning Vikings. Loves baseball, loves sport. He's a wrestler. Luca likes history. Especially learning from other's suffering in wars. He's a bit addicted to his XBox 360. He likes to skateboard. Luca has a great sense of humor, torments his sister Sophia and told me yesterday he loves Italian food. His grandmom spoils him and they love each other. And he's just recovering from a hateful flu.

    We got Luca a Martin guitar as his present. He sort of allowed me to film him playing it. It really has a nice sound, this is a series of movies of his playing.
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  3. DSC03884 by you.

    (I may be sitting on a blob of oatmeal, I'm too tired to really look.)

    I had a long week, but it was shortened by a day off to celebrate Columbus.
    In that shortened week we also had a training day for teachers. Worked on getting things ready for the new math adoption.
    Several days off for my kids then meant Wednesday they weren't so interested in everything going "my way." A few days off often results in a long day back, I forget that over and over, and it amazes me every time it reoccurs.

    DSC03740 by you.

    Just the same we did study sunflowers, a bit. Made several artworks.
    Had a real rainy day. And the week ended in a room over 95. It would be nice to have AC.
    There were two projects we did that are pretty nice, though incomplete.
    I'll share them as slide shows.

    I introduce Van Gogh, and heliotropism, as well as some basics about growing plants, seeds and harvest at this time every year to my 1st graders. I'm feeling "like a dog" because I couldn't afford and get a bus and trip lined up to go to the pumpkin farm. Awful. I can't talk about it. Perhaps I need to write the parents with at least the directions if they want to go on their own, many might make the venture down to Simi to Underwood Farms. It's just a wonderful thing to do.

    We made "Sunflower Bags" to hold our I love Reading and library books. Turned out cute but next week we will outline with "Puffy paints" and see if this doesn't make them extraordinary.
    After drawing in the sunflowers they took acrylic paints and made the sunflowers. Very beautiful overall.



    Then the children on Friday in some of the hottest heat I've ever work in, made sunflower paintings. Many aren't completely finished so the gallery isn't yet up of finished paintings. This is the work in progress:



    In the past I've blogged about helitropism and the wonderful math within the sunflower.
    I have really enjoyed taking this out to work with this year. Introduction to the Fibonacci numbers seems natural at this time. I like this site, click here.



    I found this in Flickr and like reading here about it.

    Well, mybe I'm better off just putting in some links:

    The Fibonacci Numbers and Golden section in Nature - 1

    Home School Articles and Advice

    Growing In The Garden had a wonderful set of plans and ideas with lovely books to incorporate.

    I remember Farquot from Shrek:

    Fibonacci Sequence and the Golden Ratio

    I use the same book by Anna Comstock sited on this site so that was very exciting:

    Handbook of Nature Study: Corn Study, Fibonacci, and Our Garden ...

    World Mysteries - Science Mysteries, Fibonacci Numbers and Golden ...

    This page is a kind of de-bunking one, I'm still reading it, take the time ...hum.

    Well anyway we enjoyed making sunflower artworks.
    There is a lot going on in the sunflower.

    Truthfully it took a toll on me to get things painted, collected, cleaned up while trying to log the data and record the tests equired that take away the instructional time, and organize the week's work "to the mandates." I'm 50 going on......
    but it was very nice work to do with the kids, and they did it in a lovely way.

    I have a student reading and doing math at the 8th grade ( or higher ) level and finally went and got her a collection of Roald Dahl which she seems to be enjoying reading, and need to get her higher level math work. The thing I enjoy about this is watching how it promotes better work all around in the classroom. She reminds me of my own kids....very nice it is. She's become the room secretary. We have assistants that work as pencil monitors, librarians, journal checkers, painting monitor, and so on because of their capacity to do this well, in time all will have these extra tasks, but she has shown clearly that she can peacefully aid the room while I work with groups on reading-great. She told me wednesday she wants to become an artist.

    That kind of blew me away. So few people really think that matters.
    If she brings this kind of capacity into her artwork, I can't imagine how it might then be transformed. Amazing to work with her.
    And a class of very wonderful children.
    So for her...

    Sunflowers by Vincent van Gogh

    The Paintings: Sunflowers

    http://kristendenhartog.files.wordpress.com/2009/08/two_sunflowers.jpg
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  4. Post 884....wow, me, who would have thought, A Dragonfly!

    I took this picture today of a critter we caught at school.
    1st graders are good at spotting things.
    I think it's a wonderful picture. Actually.

    DSC03433 by you.

    One of my best I think.
    We saw it on the way to the Fire Station, on the wall, so I had to stop, catch it, get a jar, put it in carefully, and have it wait until we returned to really look it over. I learned quite a bit about dragonflies today by taking this one out to the yard to share it in our jar. It was popular for sure. I haven't sat down today yet, or had a break yet, or stopped working 5AM til 5PM yet, and on Yom Kippur- which I'm not thinking is appropriate, but still I want to blog about this amazing creature.
    Before you ask, yes, he's back in nature.

    First thing I found out by watching, dragonflies turn their heads around, 360 degrees, not like you might think at all, and they appear to groom their head. It goes ALL the way around, and this is a bit disconcerting. We noticed that. They right themselves when flipped over very efficiently too. And they make an incredible buzz flying.
    You know the best thing to do is take you to some good pages on them.

    So here we go, a festival of linking.
    If you just want to look through a million dragonfly links try this.
    It's just amazing.

    But I want to know more about this insect, and so I went to find something reasonable.
    So this page seems interesting, and I'm linking you here....
    This SAYS that they cannot sting. I am not sure about that, but I respect the information, and I did lift the bug right into my jar, so, okay.

    This page, What Is A Dragonfly? was the one we used to read about our find. Pretty interesting.
    My favorite part:

    "The face is a conglomeration of plates separated by seams called sutures. The sutures are often darkened into stripes. The upper half of the face is the frons, and the upper surface of the frons is a shelf-like protuberance on which various diagnostic markings may be found. The compound eye is composed of nearly 30,000 lenses, which work in consort to provide a rich visual image to the dragonfly. They are sight-based creatures who, with a quick turn of the head, are able to scan 360 degrees as well as above and below. Their vision probably allows them to discern individual wing beats, which to us would appear as a blur. They can see ultraviolet and polarized light. Many species also see well in dim light.

    Their two short bristly antennae are thought to function as windsocks or anemometers, measuring wind direction and speed, thereby giving them a method with which to assess their flight. By the way, dragonflies have no sense of hearing, cannot smell and are unable to vocalize."


    DSC03434 by you.
    I cannot say that I was surprised to learn the pattern of their lacy wings identifies them. It's remarkable. So if you read the information here are our wings to see if you can help us identify this one. We caught it in Oxnard, CA.

    DSC03447 by you.
    Here's a really cool video if you get into these things.


    I, evidentially, get into these things.

    I also get into origami so here is a pretty nice dragonfly you can keep. We all want to know WHERE to get that paper. It's wonderful.


    Here's a nice lesson about the dragonfly, again you have to be ready for it:



    So that's pretty amazing isn't it.
    DSC03439 by you.

    This video gets points for the music. Despite the fact I Can Never listen Again.



    Here I found interesting information:
    But , of course, we wanted to IDENTIFY our insect so we went here:
    CALIFORNIA DRAGONFLIES & DAMSELFLIES
    aka
    CALIFORNIA ODONATA

    I think it's a Common Green Darner
    See:

    images by Doug Aguillard at his website
    male
    images by Ray Bruun at his website
    male eating a flame skimmer
    images by Bob Miller at his website
    images by John Sterling at his website
    female
    female
    female
    female
    female
    female
    female emerging
    pair ovipositing
    female solo ovipositing
    nymph
    exuvia
    Scans
    male
    young male top
    young male side
    female
    female
    female
    nymph
    exuvia
    exuvia
    I'm pretty sure but please feel free to check my work. I looked at wings, color and eye.
    I think I'm on it!


    ( I'm adding in this wonderful link, On Dragonfly Migration, we record observations of migrations on this site and love it.)
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  5. I would just like to place here again a poem my daughter wrote.

    I'm tempted to try and hook you into a very good book of poetry today.
    Good poets trying to do the impossible, while bleeding with a city and nation's pain.
    But I will say it was a book given to me that is worthy of a read on the day of rememberance of a national horror. Because of this day so many of us changed. Great poets inside.

    My daughter wrote a poem on one of those 9-11 days remembering. While helping me teach my 1st grade, as a saddened Principal read a poem on the intercom, and very, very ordinary life went on. Like a lot of things her words on that day might wash away, as so much ink, but I keep the poem around because it holds me, and contains some of our joint family memory....a day we remember how we worried over our family in New York, and the nation's safety...I think I'll share her work. It won't help you evaluate this book, but it will send you to it I think. It should.... the poets in the book are among our best.

    september 11th, by Sylvia Puglisi,
    A depressing sort of poem. But there could hardly be a happy one today, I suppose.

    * * *

    september 11
    17 first-graders
    moment of silence skipped
    for the immediacy of fresh strawberries
    and the novelty of pencil sharpeners
    (which may never wear off in this lifetime)

    invisible principal over the intercom
    (like in the old cartoons that reliably reproduced so many aspects of school particularly the cliched plots and precocious love lives)
    reading bad poetry in a
    flat lifeless voice
    like shakespeare in junior high
    with unenthused classmates
    esoteric
    and meaningless.
    stephen asks me to sharp his pencil
    and wonders why i
    teacher stands there for several moments
    staring blankly ahead
    looking like she's about to cry
    and then laughing quietly
    at how absurd it all is.

    come to the rug, children.
    i want to tell you a story
    of something that happened before you were born
    to people you will never get to know
    in a place you've never been.
    (next will be a story of a
    giant blue-green ball hurtling through space
    and a giant yellow ball
    they hold like lovers
    el sol y la tierra
    we love story time
    especially doctor seuss!)

    in the story it is a tuesday
    just like today.
    here is the sign for tuesday, make a t with your fingers and circle
    tuesday
    a cold bright tuesday just like today
    it was september 11 that day
    just like today.
    september is a long word that starts with an s
    and let's count to eleven
    one two three four five six seven eight nine ten eleven
    and in spanish
    uno dos tres quatro cinco seis siete ocho nueve diez once
    once upon a time
    in the year 2001
    before most of you were
    born or when you were the tiniest infant
    gnawing your fist and smiling to the delight of your parents.
    on a day just like today
    when little children just like you were counting the date
    a bad thing happened.
    a very bad thing.

    bad people
    very angry, nasty people
    who perhaps did not have enough
    people to love them
    hurt our country
    the United States of America
    you know America in sign language, children
    it is like a hug in a circle
    show me, children.

    our country was attacked
    some airplanes were flown into buildings
    important buildings
    two tall ones in New York
    which fell down
    also a military building called the Pentagon
    which has five sides
    show me five fingers, children.
    very good.
    and the last plane
    the good people took from the bad people
    and flew into the ground instead of a building.
    many, many people died.
    the people in the planes and the buildings
    and some of the firefighters who tried to save them
    they were heros, do you know that word?
    it means brave, brave people who did something amazing
    like going into a building that is on fire and falling down
    and rescuing people.
    are you listening, children?
    isaac, put your head down.

    this was the biggest attack on American soil ever
    which means
    that it was really scary for us
    really scary for your parents
    who probably grabbed you
    their babies
    from the cradles
    and held you close
    and whispered soft comforting words to themselves
    as they watched pictures on the tv
    and cried or
    just sat
    watching.

    the world is different now
    you don't know because you don't remember
    how it was before
    you can't ever know the time when parents
    worried about teething rings and toes
    and not fiery explosions.
    you weren't sitting there like i was
    in a classroom on tuesday
    (which was picture day and everyone
    was dressed to the nines
    it was two days after my birthday
    and i had new clothes
    i was looking sharp)
    a whisper went around
    that something terrible had happened
    a disaster
    an earthquake
    a bomb
    people were dying
    where? new york
    new york which was more magical and mystical to us than disneyland
    new york with the giant apple and the statue of liberty
    with the buildings that scraped the sky.

    there was a moment of silence

    kids fidgeted a little just like
    you fidget today just like
    we fidgeted when old men with gravelly voices told us of pearl harbor.
    they speak of it like an old scar
    the memory is still fresh.
    september 11 is for me a cut
    that it took a long time for me to realize was bleeding
    like the scrape on the leg that i got from band
    which i didn't feel at the time any more than a poke
    but later my band teacher gasped and
    pointed at when the blood was dripping to the floor.
    i have a scar now, too.

    but you children have no scars
    you are young and
    tiny and unblemished and i
    truly hope no history is made in your lifetime
    because it is a messy business
    or so i have found.
    we with memory scars will age and fade
    recounting stories for
    our childrens' school reports on historical events.
    you will grow and replace us and get your own scars
    falling off your bicycle.
    you will remember the date as a
    sad story and me
    teacher crying a little when you're not looking
    and so will move past me
    into the future
    without my fears and doubts.

    this consoles me, children
    on this big blue ball going around the big yellow ball
    you have danced around six times
    keep dancing, children
    the slow beautiful waltz of time.
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  6. my daughters, center with their cousins by you.

    Happy Birthday To A Twenty Year Old Daughter

    An exquisite kind of memory was brought to me
    Today as your cousin posted her family's
    Photograph of happy girls taken when we last
    Blinked our eyes, visiting there, it was just before
    Time crept up, to now take you away to your adulthood.
    And this is your twentieth trip around the sun, my daughter
    Happy Birthdays wave at you, across the country
    To your window seat on the nation's capitol
    Where you are roaming and wandering in the days
    Of your youth, and here I try on the shoes of my echoing feet,
    As the day that changed me forever is celebrated
    By my first child.

    IMG_0900.JPG by you.
    Cool waters

    When your dad tells the tale, he says you "drank a little water"
    At Carla's pool and "gave up swimming for a few years."
    I recall you on the bottom needing to be hauled up
    Completely unseen there, and just two years old.
    There seems to be that kind of difference in our parent
    Learning to swim memories.
    That difference is hard on you, I know.
    But I do remember you swimming with joy when you were
    Invited to a pool party with some happy dancers and your first dance
    Teacher in Salinas, (and I remember a hauling of
    Another boy child out of the pool, not a dissimilar story
    When he was seen, just there, on the bottom.
    But I was also trying to kind of keep you focused elsewhere.)
    The parents were having wine coolers. I wasn't.
    Never could ignore the kids running around a pool.

    Do you remember the frog in the pool in Temecula?
    The one my mom decided to go get thinking she could save him?
    Then she got too cold and had trouble getting out of the pool?
    She said to me later, (that water was probably 75 degrees that day in the winter)
    She said she probably hadn't been in a pool since she was a kid
    Did they have pools when she was a kid, no seriously, I asked her that?
    I never saw her swim or get in water, even at the beach
    I don't think it even saved the frog. I think I had to fish him out,
    Later with that net thing we used to have.
    I loved that we had a pool if only for awhile though.
    Pools were both fun and just a little bit representative
    Of how I drive you, my daughter, a bit crazy.
    You want to say, go, enjoy, try things, swim child
    And then you turn around thinking about that day when.....

    It's a good thing your Dad can ameliorate this with his versions.



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    Harriet Potter

    Even though
    I want to say
    You are so Hermione
    here in my flash of memory,
    Of life after we moved again
    You look
    so cute
    You did the costume
    just right
    I always think
    of how I sent Luca
    To school
    In the right wing
    of Temecula
    before this move,
    Unknowing

    As Harry Potter

    So cute in his plastic
    Glasses
    With an Owl on his
    Shoulder
    And he was sent home
    For
    Indoctrination
    "There will be no Potter here"
    While three fully
    Sprouted devils
    Were cheered
    As was dracula.
    Welcome to our school

    Who knew?

    You were incredible
    As your heroine
    Fully ready to go off
    To your world of
    School
    just like
    That Hogwarts's

    I knew
    when you saw,
    Cal-tech,
    With those students
    building that
    hot-tub
    In that room,
    A bedroom
    no less,

    You'd found your
    equivalent
    castle.

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    Portrait

    Why is it in water
    the best portraits are framed?

    Do we crawl still from watery
    depths onto land to grow our legs and swim?

    What joy is floating and swimming
    on a summers day in returning home?

    How is it that the greatest adventure
    for our children come in our pools learning to sail?

    When I wonder of our time together,
    will it be held in a droplet, pool, or an ocean?

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    And I was the Official Photographer

    You've seen them at the games
    Or covering an event
    With a camera and a silent watching.
    This was how too much I went
    Once I got a better camera,

    In our days
    afraid to let
    Anything get by
    Afraid for missing the moment
    That best said
    It all.

    Like these.


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    Toujours Gai

    Were you dressing for a food day
    In French class?
    Or International food day
    Was this when we made the cream puffs?
    Did we make cream puffs?
    Ok did grandmom make cream puffs?
    I think we made cream puffs
    And used canned chocolate sauce.
    Sent in the can.
    Or was this trying on a present from a relative time
    So we could make a picture album?
    Were you writing a report
    As a young American in Paris?

    I forget, it's vague, but I remember the chapeau
    That you have on here Syl
    It was one I wore daily en college
    Recall us in the kitchen too,
    Can see pictures mentally
    With different color backgrounds
    As the best days, the days of energy and love.
    I recall in images.
    But lost in the haze was
    What trip we were on
    In that time of our life.
    I was sitting in the alcove
    And inputting some kind of school data I think

    You were so much the little
    Happy one that
    Seemed to me Le Petite french girl
    Ah, Sylvie, tout le Monde is not
    So fair of face, but in your heart
    I always see the world.



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    I have a student this year
    She kind of tilts her head
    In a familiar way
    Wearing her glasses
    Trying to find my line
    Happily going in with her class
    I'm reminded by that tilt
    Of my daughter.


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    Butterfly


    She made a chart for my class and taught the stages
    The life-cycle of the butterfly
    In a unit where we made books
    Designed lots of connections in science and literature
    And unraveled the joy of spring
    Coming to this good Earth again


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    Your Face
    You learn the face of your child like no other face
    It is probably the most beautiful thing you ever know
    The eyes, smile, feelings, joys, sadness
    All are like your home
    So much of your being rests there.

    I know a face that has given me so much joy
    Wonder, amusement,
    Times I'm utterly not sure what to say or do
    Challenged me into questioning everything I do
    One I have been so blessed to have beheld.

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    A Poem About Dad And You

    A poem about a father
    should be written by daughter and dad
    Told in the actions of their days
    Footballs tossed
    Charades
    Running wildly through the livingroom
    Tackles
    And sitting to watch the game
    Or snuggled up napping.

    A story of support
    And care for a kid
    That knew he had the answers
    To her questions, mostly
    The first thing I can remember
    About School is
    you both doing a report
    One night when you woke up
    In your top bunk
    Recalling a butterfly report
    Due the next day
    As I slept on.
    I hear your Dad
    and you
    Typing away, Monarchs,
    As he got it done.
    And you got it done
    With references.
    ( He says he waited
    To see what grade he got)

    Or that big chart listing
    all the colleges you applied to
    And eventually got into
    As your Dad
    Got the job done
    Or sitting watching all of you
    Play out on the sand
    Or on bikes
    skates,
    Ramps
    Or over in the grass a game of ball
    Those days of being with
    Your father
    Were the ones I see now thinking of you both
    Your Dad getting things done.



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    Sophia With An Orange Ball

    When she bowls your sister makes me think of something so absurd
    A marshmallow trying to hold up to an onslaught of graham crackers
    But if you have to bowl, orange is definitely the way to go.

    The day she chose this lovely matching 50 pound thing to spin
    Into gutters and crawl its way toward those pins it sat
    And chatted with them instead hanging around sharing
    News of how things were going up by the shoes
    Telling of what was hot on the grill today.

    Sophia has such a gentle turn of wrist that one often wonders watching
    If perhaps she may accidentally leave the ball
    There on the line and instead slip herself down
    The alley to knock away the standing guard.

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    It was All About The Sun

    There was a light that day
    That came through the skylight
    Illuminating the stairs
    The three of you
    Decided to allow me to film
    So I caught it flickering
    Over a boy
    Torturing two sisters
    With every act of goofiness
    His 12 year old mind
    Could produce.

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    We Would Like The Filet

    Dad proudly tells everyone
    "She's no cheap date."
    Ordering you a filet, with a joy about it
    Making me laugh
    The girl who ate only meat
    The first twenty years
    Pork chops, chicken, steaks,
    Roasts, burgers, meatballs,
    Broiled, fried, roasted
    We've grilled and watched
    You enjoy the delights of the carnivores.

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    Concerts

    There have been concerts, festivals, music, shows
    You have bowed a cello, played a sax,
    Blown a horn, piped a piccolo
    Marched with a flute, drumed a kit
    Tingled a triangle, gonged, hauled, assisted
    Marking your childhood with jazz, classical, standards
    Chorales, at Christmas Concerts, Spring Medleys
    And I've enjoyed each show as if I could hear only you
    Above the rest, Sylvia, hear that I say
    She's the one coming in right now
    But I missed Carnegie Hall, how could I?
    Guitar, I forgot guitar, that ties you to your Dad.
    I hope that you find a way to keep this musical
    You. Sylvical.


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    Look it's the future
    Burning brightly
    There beyond us
    Waiting for you
    With possibility
    Problem
    Hope and hurrah's
    Every parent sees it in their
    Child
    Look carefully
    You'll see it too.
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    Thank you
    Thank you for the cheer
    Thank you for the affirming
    Thank you for days in sandboxes
    Thank you for those tiny glasses
    Thank you for all the books I loved, you loved
    Thank you for the many hours listening
    Thank you for little meaty bites
    Thank you for a few secrets kept
    Thank you for the wearing my hats
    Thank you for all the work you did
    Thank you for the wonder
    Thank you for the best days of a life.

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    Christmases

    Some say that Santa is a great lie
    We bring to our children
    So I'm a liar but the thing
    That made it wonderful was
    Knowing that you'd wake up
    Finding all that treasure
    To enjoy.

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    And she is saying "Can you believe she's taking another picture?"
    And he is saying, "She's just trying to save time, just make it nice."
    And that cracks everyone up because
    A certain someone's not in this picture and she's
    Just said something about how they've had it with the camera,
    But what I was trying to capture, I did.
    The love you had for one another.
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    The Rites

    Of passage bring the girl
    Into her own
    To look out
    On the world
    Beautiful
    And intelligent
    Gracing her day
    with a gentle presence
    My child
    Became a woman
    Wrapped up
    In the
    Costume of
    The lady
    Going out to
    Dance
    And hold a hand.


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    Pistachio

    She loves pistachio
    But not gazpacho
    She's big on pumpkin
    (It's orange, you bumpkin)
    She'll order something almond
    Over a fancy diamond
    Passes on fruits
    Preferring chocoloot
    Bubblegum hits her tum
    She always said it was so awesome
    Ice cream days
    Are lost in haze
    But Sylvia enjoyed her cones
    Almost as much as her bones.

    ( I'm getting punchy)

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    The Big Hole
    (He called a Sandcastle)

    One of my earliest memories as a mom was the time
    we went to the Beach with you as a baby
    In Monterey over towards Marina, and you ate a little sand
    Seemingly unperturbed by it with your dad finally laughing
    About how every time we looked up you'd be face down.
    We were such good parents we just set you back up
    And off you'd crawl and be over and gritty in that hat.
    Then there was the time we all met on a beach in Carmel
    Tons of us, digging the deepest hole ever attempted
    As I sat feeling sick that day, watching the baby
    Laughing as you all approached China and we won a contest
    Getting a cute wooden plaque, with a shell glue gunned on it
    Our award for most something in the sandcastle building
    We raised you at the water, by the beach, in sand
    In San Diego, Monterey, Hueneme and up and down the coast
    Of California.

    The first thing you do when you go
    Is say that you are going to build a sandcastle
    And then you start digging deep holes
    With lots and lots of buckets of sand being thrown into the air,
    Not on the blanket I've said it a million times Luca.
    Right at the waters edge because if you've timed it right
    The tide will come in and turn this into a mighty
    Thing your dad calls "a fort," now as you turn to face the onslaught
    Sometimes you like to dig the tunnels away from this
    Through the sand, I forget exactly why, I never got the concepts
    But then action comes by carrying the hundreds of buckets
    To watch the water run away
    Down the ditches, through the channel and back to the sea

    If you are raising a child an ocean is a mighty place
    To find metaphors and meanings
    Fun and days within the sun rotating around, taking you
    The tides coming and going, you coming and going,
    As you revolve again around the sun
    An ocean can mark your happiest days
    The relaxing, the currents of your thinking, marking time
    It can wash away sorrows or listen to your agonies
    The ocean can celebrate your finding a clutch of ducks
    Even if no one will let you take them home
    And an ocean can be the place you go
    On your daughter's birthday to shout out
    As wide as this is, as deep, as mysterious as it all is
    Beautiful, and the life of our planet, I love you
    More than these waves can ever know.
    Happy Birthday!

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  7. I decided today to go ahead and kick in 100 bucks to put a curtain across the back cabinets in classroom. See how it's open down below the counters....you can see it above.
    I'm not liking seeing open papers and things. I have a third of it covered, on down the cabinet but it's curtain from another room I was in and not tailored for this room. (too bad the windows wash out in these pictures they are nice paintings)





    So that green looks dorky. I think this Eric Carle fabric will be great.
    By the way, I saw on his Eric Carle site, quite a few nice fabrics for sale. I thought, how brilliant for my room. And then I decided on one.
    Slowly I'll make things for the room with the other fabric. I may order a few yards to put up on the wall and re-do somehow the word wall. And try and take on some decorating.

    (Jack just yelled in to tell me that Bob Dylan is making a Christmas album with Must Be Santa among the tunes. Boy, that's challenging to consider.)

    Anyway I think it'll look nice to put in cabinet covers.With that thought....
    purchased 15 yards of this on sale on-line because I am never going into Jo-Ann fabrics again, rude treatment...and our wonderful Fabric Well closed. So I got excited thinking it'll be clean and look good.

    Brown Bear Brown Bear Painted Animals Multi


    Cute no?
    On Flickr they have an Eric Carle Fabric group. I was surprised, but hey, nice ideas.
    Cute:


    And for those eye rolling I remind you I put a very, very, very high stake on the classroom environment, and that home to school connection. I really do follow Nell Noddings, and I value very highly that kind of room where it "talks" to you and your imagination.

    So I'm thinking of making that up.
    Hope it comes soon. I start school on Monday.
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  8. This turns out to be one of my favorite photo's from my trip to Catalina:
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    I don't know the people but this marvelous man, I think her poppa, was following this little one all around this plaza where people sat splurging on ice creams. She liked running him around and bless him he so clearly enjoyed having such a positive little one to follow. I was sitting in the sun shine stealing shots. Two days of taking pictures and eatting, sunning, walking, looking was fun.

    I've never been to Catalina. There is a tour bus lady on the island, Becky, she gives a very funny tour. Lots of comments that she's designed in like her favorite building is where she gets her paycheck. She took us on a hair raising drive over the island, well, not the longer tour I'll take next time, but an hour or so jaunt. Enough to catch me up on the Wrigley story, talk about recent years fire, the Cubs, ins and outs of Catalina's history. I saw enough to think it's absolutely beautiful.

    Let me show you a couple good shots:
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    The whole thing...that was a breathtaking view.

    I never have a drink but for the first time in over twenty five years-the last being in the Bahamas at twenty I had a Pina Colada. Here's the proof.
    I enjoyed it.
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    But that's not really so great a thing to focus on.
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    This was the hotel, the St. Lauren which was wonderful, room on te top floor right by the outside porch. Good rooms, lots of space, easy, clean. I'm glad that it was so nice. It's hard to tell here but it's on a pitchingly steep hill. I grew up on hills like that. But I can barely climb them now.

    I like this shot for some reason.
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    Probably all the angles from the trees.
    Also it looks rather empty, but it was bustling with people.
    I think I'll just put the all of it as a slide show.



    It's just easier to avoid! Ha.

    It was fun to get away a day.
    Or two.


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  9. Today I'm 50.

    Actually 50. I'm going to try to go to see my daughter in Pasadena.
    Have dinner, get my son a haircut his funny present. I'm supposed to pick something out to get but....not sure what to want.

    50.
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  10. It's Father's Day, so I call up my Dad.
    Who Let the Dogs In?: Incredible Political Animals I Have Known

    Who Let the Dogs In?: Incredible Political Animals I Have Known
    by Molly Ivins

    I am going to send him a Molly Ivins book for the day, probably this one, but I'm partial to a couple. (Okay, maybe I'm going to think about sending him the book until payday, I'm a teacher and you can only wish as a teacher or dream on...take a look at my donation list, and my second donation list, and my third donation list, and the fourth, for the classroom I'm mostly completely broke) so I tell him this. He pauses. He knows that I have pretty much one gear on this reporter/writer/superhero (and I need to say my mothers family, back, were Ivins) and that is basically.... if ever I think of Twain (and I dearly love his writing) I think of her. This book Dad would like for profiles he can appreciate in the context of his life.
    Whitty ones.

    I love it when the right wing states the left has no humor.
    Believe me Ivins can put that in some context. Disabuse you of the notion with a foil and a rubber mallet. She'd be the first to tell you that you need a h of a lot of humor to get through what's going on in this country now. But just the same, besides recommending this book and refreshing my interest in her profile portraits that seem all the more brilliant given recent events, my father made a comment that just seemed one she'd have really enjoyed. So I'll share it.

    He said, "Well I'm sure you have been thinking and reading about handling these prisoners in that Gitmo mess, just where we are sending them appears to be beyond some folks."
    I gave him my one/two per state theory. Kinda like the Senate. He scoffed at that. "No, I know where they need to go, or a great deal of them need to go." So I thought about that...would he stick them on an atoll, or ??? I wasn't quick. So he stated- with his humor, "Obviously it's Texas, the Lonestar. I think they need to go to stay in the Lonestar, the state of the guy that gave us all the issues."
    Now that made me honestly laugh outloud.
    (He continued with a bit on Arnold that really did me in. He's stunned that the Governor of a state suggests without Fed Bailout money that Federal prisoners might be "released," saying further, " I bet that'll cost you all a load more than 180 million in the first day alone, does he realize who these folks are?" Yet another thing I'd love to read her discussing is the issues we are facing in CA. See I lost my humor. I'm still trying to understand Governor threats to "close down the government." Do they have things about what you are allowed to do in office oaths on stuff like refusing to do your job? )

    But returning to Dad's idea of Texas hospitality, I thought of the way they might enjoy some free range ranching, seeing how the ranch was redecorated, trying a hand at clearing the bushes.But seriously, what a mess someone else gets to clean up. It just was a very funny image that Molly Ivins could have woven into something beautiful.

    Of course she'd have had an even better comeback.
    We lost a lot in her passing.
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I'm a public school elementary teacher from W.V. beginning my career in poverty schools in the 1980's. (I have GIST cancer-small intestinal and syringomyelia which isn't what I want to define me but does help define how I view the meaning of my life.) I am a mom of 3 great children-now grown. I teach 3rd grade in an Underperforming school, teaching mostly immigrant 2nd Lang. children. I majored in art, as well as teaching. Art informs all I do. Teaching is a driving part of my life energy. But I am turning to art soon. I'm married to an artist I coaxed into teaching- now a Superintendent of one of the bigger Districts in the area. Similar population. We both have dedicated inordinate amounts of our life to the field of teaching in areas of poverty hoping to give students opportunities to make better lives. I'm trying to write as I can to the issues of PUBLIC education , trying to gain the sophistication to address the issues in written forms so they can be understood from my teaching contexts.I like to blog from daily experiences. My work is my own, not reflective of any school district.
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